Howdy there, Edsters! Today's post is pretty deep. I know I've offered advice, stories and useless information about my NYC escapades. But now it's time for some wisdom and truth. So get ready.
When I first moved in to my closet-sized NY apartment, my roommates had this anonymous quote on our refrigerator and it's really had me thinking these last few days:
"The creatively strong survive. It takes a lot of courage and determination to make it out here. There will be many paths to choose and some may not alway be the best. Try not to get caught up in the scene. It can destroy people. Be careful who you trust . New York and Los Angeles are both cities of dreams, and your dreams and motivations have to be strong or they will be lost in the confusion of these cities."
I try to look at this quotation every morning and remind myself that I have to stay motivated to achieve my goals, but lately I feel like I haven't been giving my all to my internship at The Fitness Mag. I look at my fellow interns, high on the success of landing their first big gig, and I wish I could get that enthusiasm back. I'm not getting paid, and I feel like I'm back to square one, when I had my first magazine internship.
It seems like some of the other Ed Intern Diaries contributors are having more luck that I am, because I haven't even had an official interview yet. Most EA jobs are word of mouth, and so I feel like I haven't even been able to apply for many jobs, because I don't hear about them. I've sent in resumes and cover letters to online postings, and to HR contacts at magazine publishers, but no one has followed-up for an interview.
As you remember from my first post, I said this was "show time", because I have to find a job in NYC by the fall if I want to stay here (which I do, SO badly). I've been applying to jobs at PR agencies, as well as magazines, because I desperately need a paying job. But if I already feel like giving up on my dream job, maybe I'm not cut out for the cut-throat world that is New York City magazines.
To be totally honest, I don't know if I have the drive to fight as hard as I need to to get a magazine job. I know I need to be setting up informational interviews, trying to make contacts for freelance writing, and networking with anyone in the industry. But every time I meet other inters that have done everything right and still can't land a job- like my friend that interned with two national publications but now works as a secretary, and a fellow Fitness Mag intern who's been interning for 8 months- I find it really difficult to stay motivated.
Right now, I'm trying to stay patient, because life doesn't always work on our timeline. In tough industries, like the one we're all trying to break in to, it takes perseverance and dedication to make it. If working for a magazine is really your dream job, you have to have thick skin. You're going to feel rejected, and you're going to feel like a loser that can't even get an email response when you send in your resume. But you have to drown out the people that want to see you fail, and focus on what you've accomplished and the people that have faith in you and your dreams.
But hey, that's way easier said than done.
Any words of wisdom, Edsters?
Till Next Saturday,